There is a line in a movie called Everything Everywhere All At Once that i vividly remember besides i didn’t watch the movie at all (it’s just my preference to have cheesy cringey romance rather than the top tier one, sorry.)
There goes the line say,
“In another universe, i just wanna do laundry and taxes with you.”
And i couldn’t help but having this thought too, the endless what ifs comes to my mind unconsciously in every possibilities circumstances about us. About us that finally having the same circle of life in another universe.
But when i just had to drop my best trope for us in the next life, i hope in another universe, we’re just being an ordinary highschool student. Me and you became a classmates — chairmate perhaps — that stumbled in science major when all we want to do in the future are having a social related uni majors.
Then we spent our day talking about histories like we’re some kind of intellect human being while working on our biology homeworks. Still manage to be the best student in class, you mostly (i could come as second) — although well much of time spent with us doing the social’s SBMPTN WANGSIT book that your dad bought for you.
This one is indeed crazy but i hope you will like me first this time (am i too cruel for this?) But you didn’t realize it, untill it wasn’t easy for you to hear me rambling about seniors that i think they’re attractive. You probably start seeing me as more than a study-mate, you adore me when i sleep instead doing homeworks with you in the library. You will silently protecting me from the sun while im sleeping, or maybe when the jealousy is topping, you would start doing random menace thing to someone that you think i had the crush with — that everyone couldn’t believe THE Han Taesan would do.
And after all these time you somehow gaining courage to finally confessing your feelings to me — in a very cutest way. You asked me to come to our school band room , and i spot nothing in a pitch black, when it’s suddenly you in the middle of the room, playing some notes on the guitar you hold (that i don’t even know you could play) and singing one of that old english band you often mention about.
You look at me, perhaps nervousness coming to your sense so you couldn’t stare at me for too long. And im still there, looking at you, slowly collecting my feelings one by one, placing it in it’s right place and maybe find the last piece of it in your eyes.
You finally confessed to me. And i couldn’t help but saying yes for it. You look clueless, thinking im joking when it always been you all along.
Then our habitual days changed. Now it’s not just filling wangsit SBMPTN but also holding hand. It’s not just talking about histories but also starring at each other with so much feelings we couldn’t even say. It’s not just going to library as we need to study more but also creating space for just two of us building our new world.
And we dated on weekends. Commonly cafe hopping while finding a new place to study together. Visiting old book store while smelling the heaven air on the room. Holding hands while deciding about what we want to eat. Watching 500 days of summer and arguing who’s the wrong one. Video calling each night while saying goofy silly things. Then i ended up sleeping and you catching bunch screenshots of me.
And time passed, finally we graduated. Still dating each other, still holding hand when we both announced as the best graduatees of our school. Got acceptance letter in our favorite major. You in International Relations and me in Psychology. Thankfully we still go on the same uni, which make our relationship goes strong after years passed.
Then we still dating despite the uni busyness that hit us like a truck. We still manage to going around every weekend, holding hands, watching movies, reading books in the library or just eating together after class. You also goes on uni band, when i joined the dance team, making us the hottes uni couple and talk of the town.
And i would love to spent my day, my life being on your side. Watching your step grow bigger as mine too, walking alongside and holding hand (sorry for mentioning this too much i just love to holding his hand). Facing the adulthood that sometimes scarier than we’ve imagined in highschool.
After this universe end i hope we will also met in the next universe too. Whom could met as a black and orange cat bound to fall in love. A tree and a rock that lives near. A moon and a sun that complete each other, or just as simple as being the married couple fish in Leehan’s fishtank (he still manages to like fish in every universe.)
And i will still catch you whenever the universe put me in to. I would find a way to look at you affectionately and fully madly in love with you. I would still fall for you even the circumstances tell me i couldn’t do.
But now, knowing you shine brightly there make my heart feel at ease. Maybe in this universe we couldn’t hold hands together, but im glad to meet you as a fan and as someone whom i always look to. And amidst this universe, i still manage to love you… not too late, not too early. Just at the right time.
I know we can’t promise anything now but i’ll spent my 400 years as you said to grow together with you, adoring you as the brightest star to even shine in my world.
But in another lifetime, promise me you would always stay wherever whatever the universe placed us to be.
I hope in another universe, we still go on the same circle of life, the bigger possibilities, the exact circumstances.
And i will love you. I will find a way to love you, even from now and the days on, in every universe.
I will always go with you.
